We Lost and It's A Lesson Learned

Dear Universe,

 Open Split is coming and I am very excited about it. We're like preparing for four months, and after the previous batch left the team, I am so eager to find a replacement. After searching for members for two months, I am full of confidence that we can ace this grassroot again.

But what happened was a total opposite. 

After flunking the Dayo Serye, we lost the Open Split. It was straight 2-0 against Wetrnd. What was the most annoying part, after leaving the team for no one was listening to be and was disrespected, the team got disbanded. Not we couldn't even join the PKL Fall League this August.

Shin and I were always been together in this. Yeah, I felt betrayed by what he did in the team, but he would be always a reason why I was pushing this career so hard. And I was already so invested, that thinking that I would stop here made me cry.

No, I will not go extinct that easily. Anubis may be gone, but I always have Equinox by my side. Either this will get so fucking messed up or this will flourish in the community, this will always be mine. Bad experiences are always a lesson learned. Thinking of it that we need to feel pain in order to grow, it is worth thinking that you will not always stay the same. You're growing so physical maturity happens, and you're changing ideologies as being immersed shapes you.

No matter what happens, I will continue chasing this dream of a bigger stage. This may sounds more of the justification or rationalization of a bad experience, but I will not back down anymore. This is a dream made last year and my consolation to my broken Palarong Pambansa dream.

Love,

Zoey ♡